What A Weekend..

I promised myself I would never write about trivial things that happen in my life.  Even though a blog is supposed to be a window into someone else's world, I prefer to keep that view limited. So in a few words or less I will describe my weekend.  

My sister's ex boyfriend's dad committed suicide Thursday night.  I've never felt such heartache for one family in my life.  They have no money and no way of providing a proper memorial service.  They are wanting to move out of the house and have no money to do so either.  My mom set up a trust fund this morning for people in the community to donate funds.  I can only pray God's hand will be upon them while they make their way through this terrible tragedy.

I grew up being taught that people who commit suicide don't go to heaven.  It makes me really wonder now if that's true.  I honestly don't think that someone who commits suicide is in their right mind when it happens.  I wonder if God forgives and welcomes them with open arms in heaven.  I wonder if he holds them and tells them it's okay and that nothing bad can ever happen to them again.  But then again I wonder if he chooses to have no mercy.  Living your life is all about the choices you make and the consequences that follow them.  Is suicide someone's way of getting out of the consequences given to them?  I don't know.  All I know is that I am glad it's not my job to judge.  

Towards the end of the weekend Maury and I had a huge fight.  It was the worst fight in the history of our relationship.  Needless to say it got really ugly.  It ended with me packing my things and leaving to stay with my mom at her hotel.  The next day he asked to meet me before I left.  We had a long conversation about expectations and our relationship.  Lots of tears, hugs and kisses later I am happy to say we are going to make it.  It marked a huge crossroad in our relationship.  A lot of changes are coming. Changes for the better.  I know it sounds awful, but I am really glad it happened.   I believe it was all apart of the plan.  There had been too much tension built up from certain issues in our relationship, and to feel like they are finally getting solved is a huge relief.  I love him with all of my heart and soul and it is so refreshing and wonderful to know he feels the same way.  

God works in really strange ways.  He takes the ugliest of situations and turns them into beautiful lessons learned.  Maury and I went out to the lake to hike and swim the morning after our fight.  It was so relaxing to be with him with no distractions, just the two of us.  We walked and talked and swam and had so much fun.  Knowing we can make it through anything makes me confident in us.  I am so looking forward to the rest of my life with him.