Emphasis on Influence

It often amazes me at the extraordinary influence Maury has on me. I don't know why I expect that he shouldn't, because it's supposed to happen in a relationship. My therapist (yes I have one, I think everyone should) says that relationships are about "growing each other up." You make each other better people.

I smile when I think about all the awesome things he has taught me. We had an in depth conversation about politics this weekend. Politics are a subject that I particularly don't care to discuss often. I think it breeds arguments and makes people tense and standoffish. Maury and I have very similar political beliefs, which is necessary, but we never have really had an in depth discussion about them. He is so smart and makes me think in ways I haven't before.

He also makes me want to be a positive, just generally happy person. He worries about nothing, literally nothing. I always worry about him. Worry about him in school, what he is doing everyday, if he makes the right decisions, etc. It consumes my life at times. I worry about him being a good person more than I do myself. I place really high expectations on him, often higher expectations that I have for myself. I want him to be perfect, so I don't have to worry. It's really toxic thinking and a toxic lifestyle. I hate it. I wish I could just live my life and not freaking worry so much. I have no confidence. He helps bring that out in me. He told me this weekend to "Quit looking for reasons for things to be wrong, quit looking for problems!" What an extraordinary but oh so simple solution to my molehill-out-of-a-mountain problem.

So another ode to Maury. Thank you God for bringing someone into my life to give me a swift kick in the pants once in awhile.