Nutella

Life is really annoying sometimes.  I am exhausted.  This weekend was supposed to help me catch up now I feel even more behind.  

Friday afternoon, I got a call to do a farewell video for a local outstanding teen here in my hometown.  They had asked someone previously to do the video and it didn't turn out so well, so they were frantically looking for someone to re-do it. That's where I came in.  Normally I would have said no, but I am in desperate need of extra cash and I didn't have very much homework.  So I said yes.  I went home that evening and started on it and ended up staying awake until 4am.  I woke up the next day and spent another hour or so finishing up.  It ended up really great, and I am proud of the work.  I am hoping the word will spread and I will be asked to do more of them.  

Which leads me to my next issue of life.  Exhaustion.  Nursing school is getting hard.  I am in school 4 days a week and working at the hospital in the evenings three of those 4 days.  It's draining.  My charge nurse told me last night to take a break...scale back to a few less days, but I just can't.  I will have NO MONEY.  My parents can't help me anymore and I refuse to ask them because I don't want the financial trouble to hang over me for the next 2 years.  

I called in this afternoon to work and my boss was less than thrilled.  I was so pissed off and so upset at the same time.  I hate the feeling of not being able to do it all and help, but I can't do it anymore.  I can't run run run and not expect the consequences.  I will FAIL nursing school if my schedule continues like this.  I may just have to suck it up and work on Friday even though I HATE the thought of that.  I hardly ever get to see Maury and that's when I usually go down or he comes up.  

So the stress is killing me and to top it all off, I need to catch up in school and I have a test tomorrow.  I know I will make it though.  I have to press on and push through.  

Until tomorrow, I will sit and eat my favorite non-pageant friendly snack.  Nutella.  It's a delicious chocolate-hazelnut spread.  And yes, I eat it straight out of the jar with a spoon.  It's soooo yummy.  Just me, my nutella and school tonight.