Running On E.

I close on my brand new house tomorrow.  Too bad I'm not the least bit excited as I used to be.  

Ok, yes deep down I am thrilled.  I am ready to be a homeowner.  I can't wait to have SPACE!!  But I feel like so many shady things have happened since we decided to buy the house.  Things are so tense with my parents and I.  Money is the root of the issue.  All I have heard about is how much this house is costing them.  I'm sorry, but they knew what all it as going to take to get this house, and if it was too much and they were going to complain, then why are we doing this?!  

I was so thrilled yesterday when I opened a random letter from the IRS to find they are re-doing my rebate and I am getting more than I expected!  So I call my mom in excitement to tell her and she says, "Wonderful! You can buy a few new things for your house!"  Then we go to a Memorial Day cookout at my grandparents and all that changes.  They now want to tell me how much things are costing them and that they are offended I didn't offer my rebate to help pay.  It's such a two faced situation.  Then I offer them the rebate and they say, "No that's okay, you keep it. " What the hell?  

All I know is I'm not playing this game with them.  I feel like they offer me the world only to hang it over my head.  I work really, really hard.  I payed for my entire college education to date with scholarship money and I have 16,000 left over for nursing school.  I feel like that NEVER gets taken into account.  I am working full time at the hospital and taking on extra shifts on the weekends to earn extra money.  I also have another side business working right now, selling a line of breast cancer awareness t-shirts and other products on zazzle.com, to earn extra money.  But still, they call me ungrateful and say that I "don't know how good I have it." They don't call they're expressions of costs to me "complaining" they call it "making me aware."  What purpose does that serve? None.  It makes for a really great argument though.  Congratulations. 

So I'm officially on the strictest budget of my life.  I am saving my money and getting the heck out of dodge, so to speak.  I really don't want this to cause a rift between them and I.  I love them and I want their support, but I refuse to live like this.  I will pray for peace and resolve for the situation.